No care for mechanics of writing

so i met some interesting people today
you ever feel like your constantly meeting people at the wrong time--- I sit and wonder as my creative mind starts to open its drawing board.- I can truly see in the dark, through the darkness of my mind I see caverns forming. they appear in my the back of my mind and a giant pendulum is swinging so silently - all I can hear is that monstrous click which seems to drown out all bias thoughts and emotions. I don't know how I know but I do know that it is off beat by just a few seconds -- which really altars everybody by 2-3 years. It has skipped me a few beats a few years. It's a constant paradigm of what direction life could possibly branch off into, thinking so cautiously not to in any way hinder my appreciation for my current place in the threads of time. though - I will never know since I can't touch the Giant pendulum swinging back and forth at an unstoppable pace ever so silent. "Its too fragile just the slightest distortion of thought and it would vanish, but I do see it. I would stop and reset the pace "if I could" almost like a snooze button that does its job right rather than confirming the procrastinating nature of the imperfect human (hitting that button ten times). yet without true foresight that very snooze button could be the my true physical pendulum. a few minutes could be the difference of my life... if I am here today or here tomorrow.